Little story book of mine

Im back

2012-01-09T10:08:00.000+01:00

finally gonna upload more and more, has been so longgg since the last post > < neglected totally!

im back home! =']

2012-01-06T04:43:00.000+01:00

bless my luggage! luggage you must come back to meee =[

OMG here i come again

2011-10-15T15:46:00.002+02:00

it has been 3 months omg, i cant believe it! i didnt touch my bloggy at all.

anyway, last two days morning, i found out that my grandma just passed away, the time when i heard this, i couldnt help myself, my tears keep falling down and all the memories just popped up in my mind.

thanks for my friends who cheered me up =']

i will be even stronger and tougher and before.

po po, i will always love you, you will always be in my heart.

i proud of you to still remember you were having 10 grandchildren.

im proud to not go to school at kindergarten time, so i have such loads memories with you ='] the time you pushed me into the bus, the time you went down to supermarket and left in at home, i was shouting ah po ah po ='] , the time you brought me and ah yee and michelle down to china town with traditional bus, the time when you told me my childhood time, so much so much tears, i can never finish dropping my tears whenever my surrounded ones asking my grandma..

im sorry po po, i was trying to be happy and not crying, but i still need sometime to recover myself..

take good care of yourself, =]

my dearest po po. heart xoxo.

晴天

2011-07-12T23:23:00.002+02:00

looking outside the restaurant, people passing by, tram moving, laughters..

thousand people surrounded, but im all alone,

im tired of being a reporter getting to front line at each time,

tired of being a top runner who needs to keep the record and keep on track,

tired of being think that i m a fool,

easily being bullied, depress, miserable..

im not pessimistic, and im not demotivating myself,

its just, the world change until the circumstances that i could hardly follow the pace.

tell me what could i do?

i just want my simple happy life, being pampered and appreciated.

i misss home, and i miss my family, i feel like hugging them as long as i could and never let go.

i hope time is gonna neutralise what is happening..

as soon as i go, i go with the flow..

i wont be worrying anyone anymore, because there will be someone worrying about them.

i wanna take a rest.

i miss you and i miss home.

2011-06-04T17:27:00.002+02:00

wanna go home.

Gosh..

2011-05-30T00:09:00.001+02:00

it has been a long long time since i stepped in here. and i almost forget, i have you as friend.

im going to post more, but let me finish my task.

i will be back.

back to track. =]

A break!

2011-05-13T18:38:00.002+02:00

have been working with full energy.

i understand.

2011-04-14T19:27:00.003+02:00

i hurt a person.

i know its not an excuse.

i know it hurts so deep and much.

i trust and i believe but my instinct my thought just came out with unbelievable reply.

but this did not meant you, this meant the way i reflect things and what i think it is..

it is unforgivable i truly understand. but there is one thing i need to say,

without the world of support, i will be the only supporter,

without the understanding of all, i will tolerate and understand it,

i need the support from you too, and i need you.

IM back!

2011-04-02T19:03:00.002+02:00

I m back from working in a catering group. Worked with big company under Breitling =P so cool. It was fun and memorable of course. and I learned more than ever..

thanks for giving me this opportunity, i know i can do it better the next time =)

well, had my interview and try out on thursday in Renaissance =P had fun, so cool.

but i lose during the war > < i mean...health..i got sick, had high fever, but im so stubborn haha..never want to go to clinic or pharmacy to get medicine because i wanna depend on my antibody lol.

however the next day, i couldnt take it and i walk in a "dead way" towards the train station to get medicine as there was a pharmacy..phew! i have minor fever now..thank god...but im afraid im loosing my voice like my classmate few weeks back =P ahhaha..gonna have fun huh? jokes on me! omg.

Oh..

2011-03-21T11:43:00.000+01:00

Happy Dayy.. =)

Bring the BIG

2011-03-19T23:26:00.001+01:00

GIVE A BANG!

i want to let ppl know what we will be having

i want to let ppl know what we are going to do

i want to let ppl know what AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

WE ARE 365 days....

hehehehehehehehehehehehee

Away

2011-03-17T23:04:00.003+01:00

i will be away quite sometime though..

gonna have great experience for this time..

catch up with you guys soon..

gonna tell more about it =)

Have been raining heavily

2011-03-16T22:52:00.000+01:00

it has been raining the whole day here..windy and cold..

that reminds me of a heavy "shower" after hot sunny day back to my hometown.

it wasnt that cold comparing to where im now.

lack of energy and power from family and friends back there.

i miss home.

after so long what i ve been done for myself, my journey.

i dont ask for a rest as needed to move on to accomplish my mission.

i hope all i ve been doing and whatever i did is beneficial and is good for future.

hoping everything is all right at home now..

wishing and looking forward so much that i could at least see whats happening there.

你们还好吗？................

Photographs

2011-03-09T15:23:00.003+01:00

looking back at all photographs,

all the time which posted out and making differences..

no doubt, it seems im getting "no meat" day by day..

thanks for asking for the reason haha..im really fine, im not in sickness.

is just times go by, you dont know and didnt realised you ve been doing so much things and there are so many things happening which you need to sort things out..

we are not kiddy kiddy happy go lucky like few years back..

fooling and having fun as people said : "快乐不知时日过" = you enjoying and having fun that, you dont know you already half way walking past a half quater of your life.

appreciate and treasure time that i have,

im going to live even tougher, stronger, and blast my life!

rub off the pain and hurtful memories..live better than anyone else!

in the process of rejuvenating.. =)

nothings gonna ruin my things out..

cheers! and by the way...hello MARCH! =P

somehow just wanna stay in february for always..

and so i will always stay 19.. haha

生日快乐

2011-03-08T16:05:00.002+01:00

it seems nothing special for everyone's birthday..

Happy birthday i said to myself =)) 7/3/2011 could be as usual as everyday, but for me, i must celebrate! i should celebrate and thank my mum that i actually was born on this day. I should thank my parents they made me until this day.

Thanks daddy mommy.

Thanks my friends.

Thanks my love.

Thanks a million.

love.

Story we have.

2011-03-05T21:04:00.002+01:00

Everyone has a story...

i ve been staying in a dark depress tunnel where i dont want anyone to see me right there.

you can say everything is so depressing and miserable in my life.

but i will live in a good condition too even if things happen again..

my day is coming and soon will be our day.

i ve been thinking the purpose and the meaning of life as i grow older.

i dont want to waste my time and energy anymore..

been through the roller coaster state, what else more?

everyone has different life, but i wouldnt be the one who want to ruin other's.

it doesnt matter anymore in what perception i see the problem because no matter how i feel, i try, i analyse, im just trying to entertain myself and comfort myself.

i dont want to be the real bad cruel girl but i hope and wish everyone not to step into a relationship when you know they are having one because you would be the one who kills and did a worst thing ever and when you realised, it would be too late as you might be having revenge because of you did before.

so please..stop doing that and hurt everyone around you.

however it is..it would be...you will get it in one day.

stop creating trouble and suffer.

Hello March =)

2011-03-01T00:03:00.001+01:00

不要长不要长不要长大，长大后世界就没童话!!

...

2011-02-19T21:21:00.002+01:00

我是否能继续安心追求我的梦想和理想？

之后会发生什么事？谁能预料？

你了解我的心情吧？

Happy chinese new year and happy valentines ;)

2011-02-15T21:18:00.002+01:00

didnt really wish you guys a very happy chinese new year and enjoy your day though =)

i was busying with all my open semester stuffs. no holiday of course. the ang moh dont know about it. but anyway..

thats y i didnt manage to actually write whats all i need to.

a glimpse..and now past valentines..welll..i had mine..great lunch-dinner.

was tough after so long. but i m not going to give up. and i will keep it up =)

i wanna achieve what i want before i regret.

life is just too short to wait and regret.

human learning chapter is deep and long...but we need to move on.

wish you guys all the best in these coming days..best wishes. ;) enjoy your year, enjoy rabbit year.

Trust, loyalty, chance

2011-02-11T00:31:00.003+01:00

Talking and listening in the class.

Consumer behaviour hahaa im like studying psycho already.

anyway..ppl minds are different and weird.

looking at some point from studies to relationship between each other , doesnt matter who friends, family, relatives and etc.

that 3 elements that i thought, i think is important to sustain them in order to continue anything.

its hard to have a friend, is tough to gain trust, long term to have loyalty.

but chance? only once.

i always tell my best friend and make sure her situation in good status.

maybe you dont have one true friend. thats y you are trying to snatch ppl thing away like a theft pickpocket. and my teacher taught me that the theft and pickpocket are bad person. they will have revenge one day doesnt matter when and how.

dont try to act a second person wearing mask to get what you want when you know it doesnt work and its so awful when you look at yourself in the mirror. dont try to lose yourself pride and yourself.

this could just summarised that you dont love yourself that much, thus, you dont have pride, dont have face, dont have PRICE. is on sale.

think further, dont hurt ppl around you, dont ever hurt your friends that are worrying about you, and dont ever hurt yourself like nobody business.

There is nothing much just - I love myself.

Here i come again

2011-02-05T22:36:00.002+01:00

walking around during weekends off the mountain. this time is even tougher. i will try my best is do whatever i can in both my two major part.

go with what "they" give me. i think it would be the best choice..

i want to get my grades, i want and i have my mission. i wouldnt stay for anything.

i need mine. walking around and sometimes it gives you something good in silence.

that only be one and only thing i will think about.

i will definitely not tolerate myself if i did the wrong decision somehow.

but anyway..day by day..another week has gone. in certain period i would rather rest..

take a break..i need mine..hmm

Realization costs

2011-01-31T23:28:00.003+01:00

Walking through the path, i will just blame myself that i dont have enough experiences..

i will blame myself for being too good to anyone around..

i realised im putting my pure heart to do every single thing thats y, my mom told me i will never going to become a successful businesswoman because i seldom lie, and i dont lie.

i seldom do things that cannot go through my way and my thoughts, people who can, congrats you are leveled up. =)

it doesnt really matter now what i am doing and what im planning to do, i paid priceless amount to buy realization. walking along the road, and yet i keep thinking what am i living for..ha..its bored i know..anyhow, one minute silence can be different. making decision and the way you think..

i need a break now..haha even its the second week of schooll..its tiring =(

Snow

2011-01-24T22:01:00.003+01:00

School time

2011-01-22T17:00:00.003+01:00

thinking back all these school time, it was blackboard classroom =) playing with chalks happily. Especially having name on duty roaster..need to clean up the blackboard, it was real fun haa..thinking back all these days. 原来我已体验过许多...

although i was not sociable that time, i dont talk, im a silent girl, nobody realised whats happening to me except my besties. everybody said im a tboy because i was all the way an athlete. i love sport but it doesnt mean im a guy okay? haa. anyway..

then it came the whiteboard time. having whiteboard marker and start drawing the board thinking it was fun and amazing. thinking back once again, what did i do all these while? what have i done till then? im thankful that i have a bunch of 死党 being there with me whenever i need them. thats why learned and im contented with what im having and i appreciate them as i really dont know when will i lose one of my treasures. never know.

come to adult life, having smartboard for teaching, learning what i want to. its bliss. im not hoping everyone will accept my action and behaviour, you can leave me alone if you dont treat me as a friend because i dont need ya. haa. i would say whoever im having, i ve a bunch of quality friends. i do choose them, this is reality =) but all my friends, give yourself a clap, because you deserve it. person who i dont think you are qualify...you might have chance to..im mean, i can be cruel too, whatever you did to me, i will remember, but i will not revenge because i just think its childish. 冤冤相报何时了？ walking through this journey,..the biggest gift ever i got.

time past life leopard running from one part to another, i dont want to waste my time anymore..whatever happened, let them be. im concern about my future plan. i needa be tough and hard from now on. my resolution 2011. forced to be. reality, here i welcome myself into it.

snowing.

2011-01-20T12:14:00.002+01:00

snow again. really nice and impressive snow this morning. brighten up my day =))

can i go out for photos =)

it has been a long time since i ve taken photos.

其实一个人也好，总可以让你想一些以外的东西，哈哈.

i miss walking along Zurich See. school is going to start soon. so soon i need to go back.

gonna have plenty to prepare.

gonna go. ;) catch up later.

way.

2011-01-19T18:50:00.003+01:00

way, you re the one who made way for yourself, of course there are many ways to walk during your journey of life. Every single way has its own bitter, sweet, sour and spicy taste. You will never know if the way is correct until you reach and face the problem or the scenario.

but sometimes, when you already chose the right way, try not to skip or go through the shortcut because you will never know what happen next.

life, its just like roller coaster sometimes, you never expect how high and whats the feeling until you came down with the speed with the roller coaster. you will not expect the end of the result and the feeling thats y you chose to try variety of things.

to me. once i know my way, i will not go into or recide my decision because i just one the one and only thing.

stop entertaining me with small actions. im tired.

Candy

2011-01-15T00:56:00.002+01:00

wishing everyone a very happy new year here..

nothing much happen to me though. school is going to start soon. so soon im going back to the school mode.

Candy. i miss my kiddy time. at least the things that require to think is not so complicated and i need to sort them and come out with solution. By now, things wouldnt be like younger time thinking that everything is gonna be solved after a candy. How i wish once i got my candy things are gonna still be the same and back to normal again, i will have my life goes on.

Sometimes when i think back whatever i did, im doing and i will do is the right choice and the right step..because once i decided, things can never turn back and give you a chance once again. Included, friends, family, studies, internship. Too much things have been changed, and will be changing..you never know what happen next. thats y, i rather now treat myself good, because nobody can treat yourself better except you.

I hope things wouldnt be that hard when it comes to future. Give me a rest of some..i'm mentally tired. i need rest or i cant hold on...

hmm..anyway anyhow, i will still hope and wish that my friends are all in good health and studies, wish them you guys all the best in this coming days and months, study hard and of course play harder..haha.. because i will play harder too =) too much incoming things..needa play hardcore...

care for me

2011-01-08T20:25:00.002+01:00

didnt know which is the right spot to start my point.

i never knew girl, you re so important to her. too much question marks need answers to solve.

what am i and why am i struggling. it seems torturing.

can i have an ending of these triangle shape thing.?! im tired of worrying at all time.

i dont want to guess and be like the busybody running all over like mad dog to show that i care.

in this world, you can only choose yes or no. leave or stay on.

tell me, what are you thinking please?!

blame on me.

2011-01-04T10:38:00.002+01:00

dont know..whenever he did something annoying..

you put the blame on me because you assume that this is my friend and i need to be responsible on it..

i m tired as well, i didnt sleep well though..

dont get pissed because of this.. can you?

Happy new year to yuuu.! 2011

2010-12-31T21:42:00.002+01:00

before the night comes to and end, before 2010 comes to an end..i would like to use you all a Happy New Year 2011! may god bless you and good luck all the year.

Wish you guys will have a better resolution and better plan for this coming year.

Wish you guys will have wonderful days and moments..

have fun and cheers..lets count down.

Rub away the sadness had been through because tomorrow will be a better day.

I will promise myself not to do any hurtful thing towards myself.

I will be stronger. ;)

Cheers babes and dudes!

We shall meet soonnnn...

Vienna here we go

2010-12-21T00:35:00.001+01:00

Graduated.

2010-12-17T00:01:00.001+01:00

Yea, cool ha.

This is life and this is reality, get used to it.

sometimes i just dont understand why am i working so much for.

sometimes i could just blame myself for being too motivated without reason.

anyway. last day. phew !

Xmas

2010-12-16T01:04:00.001+01:00

Merry christmasssss....santa claus is coming to townn ;)

so happy its gonna be an end..so soon..

its just like a dream..

but was fineee =)

thanks.

can't tell.

2010-12-14T21:08:00.001+01:00

because i like it.

Competition competition and competition

2010-12-09T11:47:00.003+01:00

phew, at least coming to an end soon.

Was having quite lots of work and task to accomplish though.

I'm fine with these days. Hey friend, I'm have few days which are happy, dont worry =)

well..just finished a final presentation about SWOT in a certain hotel that we re planning.

i would say, it was not that good though..we were like a joke for them, they were laughing all the way. I mean..the judges, anyhow, we did till the end, at last. =P hopefully we didn't disappoint you guys.

had cocktail making section today. I would say, this is my day till afternoon..now..i was selling Mojito curing the first stage to my judge and now i picked the same one. ;p so happy. at least i have a little confidence to not embarrass myself. haa.. and Mojito is really a nice cocktail that i ever had. And i know you like it among all cocktail too. Lovely. My day. Make this as our drink hhehe..i begin to like Mojito with bacardi white rum now =9

gonna prepare myself for serving 4 pax later. I dont know what will happen, and i dont wanna prepare because the more you re nervous, the more you forget everything and the more mistakes you will make, im just gonna prepare myself nicely and enter impromptu. I hope and i wish everything will be nice, tidy and good and memorable.

Just my day till afternoon - Mojito =P

Winter Starry Night

2010-12-08T11:00:00.003+01:00

Great star light all along the road.

I m happy when i saw these round..

hehe..warm my heart, as winter is coming but still..

the feeling of lights around..

the warm that surrounded my place.

Housekeeping Week

2010-12-07T14:42:00.002+01:00

tired of keeping and collecting rubbish. argh.

Im in housekeeping department but im not a maid or whatever.

I do whatever i should but not beyond. You guys should understand and realised by now that..rubbish only throw into rubbish when it has rubbish bag. I put plenty of them hanging beside the rubbish bin. Its just very easy to open the rubbish bag and put into the rubbish bin and throw rubbish in it.

People just dont understand..or i would say they will never understand.

I wish they will get revenge for what they did, they will need to pay back 10 times more.

Curse on you.

collapsed

2010-11-27T08:22:00.001+01:00

utterly speechless, make decision before when you know shits happen.

sorry, i realised, you feelings through his song.

2010-11-26T09:47:00.002+01:00

你只喜欢我微笑

you will only like me smile 你决定我的需要

you decide my needs 我要怎么说才好

why can i do more? 我不是为你制造

im not made out because of you 关心像是泥沼

you re care sticky mud

拉住我往下掉

pulling me down 还是漂亮口号

or this is a great nickname? 诱惑你的视角

to temp your vision 你把我的喜欢好随便删掉

you simply delete my interests 变成你要的调调

to change into your lifestyle and rhythm  你为我好我知道我都知道

i know you re treating me good, i really know 我的烦恼我的骄傲你却不明了

but you dont know my proud and what is happening to my thinking 怎样爱你才好

how can i love you better 毕竟黑豹需要自由奔跑

as leopard needs to has its own space to run about 不能满足于拥抱

cant fulfill and receive more  can you feel my world  真实的我没办法伪造  can you take my hand  真诚你会感觉到   can you feel my world  真实的我没办法伪造  并不想讨好  你才觉得我重要

没关系，因为彼此相信对方，那就够了，不再多言

2010-11-24T08:46:00.003+01:00

只好说我们太恩爱，不懂得硬中带软，所以往往很多事只能后来才解决，所以我们不知道如何在危机时刻防守，撤退，好让日后从长计议..

Hey babe

2010-11-24T08:35:00.004+01:00

sorry babe that i didn't have time to chat with you in the morning,

i hope you re having fun now on the journey to somewhere..

i wish you were here.. *silly smile.

i ll miss ya.

lots love.

just wanna say

2010-11-22T09:01:00.001+01:00

you re irresistible! =P

=)

2010-11-21T23:12:00.001+01:00

我们真的只有这么多话题吗？

just hope that we can talk more.

wishing to have one

2010-11-16T23:09:00.001+01:00

hmm..how i wish to have one..

but until now i dont get it..

where is it? my my my my my reply

i typed.

2010-11-15T21:54:00.002+01:00

I typed what i wanna typed.

Dont mind repeating again and again what i wanna tell you.

i dont mind telling you again and again.

i miss you smile.

=')

i really miss you smilling to me.

Biggest wish all of sudden

2010-11-15T16:45:00.002+01:00

I wish and i hope that i have a chance to go to Westlife concert. At least once. =o=

=\

2010-11-14T23:37:00.001+01:00

thats y i feel insecure..
thats y we argue.
thats y i m afraid.
thats y i think too much.

再一次感到失望

2010-11-13T01:07:00.002+01:00

everytime of today's promise..become disappointment.
I'm afraid to wait and look forward.
And I just want you to know how much I care and worried. I just hope I'm the one who can understand and solve things with you together. P/s: you know IL NC. Heart almost roll tears down.

阿 bi

2010-11-12T17:15:00.001+01:00

i ve got nothing to say.

just..want to spend time with you as much as possible.

p/s: IL NC.

sometimes just aint enough

2010-11-08T15:07:00.001+01:00

its still fear and pain...

of course it needs time to recover..

but im sure i will get through it dont worry.

because i believe your promise..for the one and only.

p/s. ILNC

cool

2010-11-07T21:00:00.001+01:00

because you should know by now that,

who is the most important to you..

you know what it means..

p.s ILNC

thanks.

2010-11-06T11:25:00.003+01:00

whenever my curiosity is up to this level, i cant bare with it. blame me for being "busy body". but the only thing is i wanna know.

may i know? whats the conversation about? why is there some sentences which suppose to be only writing to your girl appear in this conversation?

you promised me to tell..whats that all about?

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=) you told me. but just...i know you re playful..it can be in all kind..but some words can only say to someone who is special to you, someone who is really mean something to you.

i want the respect of im being your girl, and i dont wish to be playful when i think this relationship we both are looking so deep into it.

thanks. thanks for letting me slowly realise whats happening around in your world.

thanks for avoiding some awkward situations.

i dont wish to have more than only me who is being called some special in your heart.

i want you to call the one and only me.

dont be playful with this anymore okay? =]

we know how we need each other.

p/s: I L NC.

Sleepless nightt

2010-11-06T03:40:00.007+01:00

just a glace,,..semester is gonna end really soon. its gonna say bye bye to this semester again. then continue my HD.

today is my off day, so i decided to leave sorenberg and get down to luzern with moni. was happy all the way, had shopping, spend something at least filling my satisfaction. ha ha. anyway. had fun..sweety.. =9

we went to have dinner in a thai restaurant. we were carrying our stomach on the way back.

we snapped shots, we played, we talked, we chit chat, we etc etc hidden. haha.

there was something happened. i just dont know why whenever we having great time and then it ends tremendously. someone had alcohols beyond the bar which they supposed to know they are not allow to. things happen again and all around. why they have to be so stupid...its just so simple to follow the rules and regulations. can you guys not having these many of troubles and i could have my last few weeks moment spending with people i want to? stop doing something childish like a kid with full of curiosity. if you know thats wrong, you remember and not to redo the mistake is acceptable. when the second time with common sense doing something wrong when you know about it but still you want to do it..that is not acceptable. - karma. whatever you did, you will have revenge one day. you will need to pay back even more than what you did wrong.

anyway..was planning to watch stars but failed because of them, thanks, shall i give you guys credit on my post? = ="

i walked alone to the post office and back fro twice..i walked to the stars watching area go and back for two times. i talked to someone who is trustworthy, thanks honey, you made half my day still shinny. i met you then, and we went back together. i decided to stay in my room because i wanna give you some space to chill out. shytes always happen..then bar was closed, most of them were being kicked out. wondering what is happening...and fire alarm rang...running here and there..while i just wish to have a silent friday. i dont wish or hope much..just sometime for me spending with somebody i care.

then my babe came in and had a chat with me..asking about me and telling me when it comes to relationship, i must fight and never give up with it. so i persuade myself to learn to trust. even when im the many thoughts people. however, i just found something not true..but still i will trust you, because you promised and tell me whats true. and i still believe.

and now, 4.04am..i m still awake..because i couldnt believe my eyes what i saw..i feel so embarrassing and feel so priceless about me anymore because i stepped in the area of privacy.

i was defining the word " i love you " and calling " husband and wife " to anyone as long as you like to anyone you want to. im so oriented at that moment. i was shaking and shivering myself. i saw the conversation which begin with " can with start again ? ", " do you need doc? ", " of course i worry about you" , " i love you lo po " etc etc. please tell me it was just prank or someone was writing it. i apologise as because i was just customising your birthday album as garv told me to, but a msg start up and my eagerness of looking came through. but i think i have the right because im your girl. forgive me if im concouring your room but im not. i dont really understand until you tell me and explain to me. its like the incident we met on the slope, you explain to me whats happening. and so i accept. i just want to know what happening around you how i tell you everything even though you might not interested in them. i want you to tell me or at least writing it to me than walking away from me. these mistakes are just gonna happen again on me because i dont know whats right and wrong and where is the mistake that i shouldnt redo again anymore as i know the answer and i shouldnt be asking again.

somebody told me that, small little thing could not be seen in short term but accumulation of the small things are gonna affect the long run. i cant afford to lose this important person, just like you cant afford to lose the trust from them. Whenever, i would really love to sit down and hear your opinion and feedback, but at the end i only bring my sadness and saving the question marks until you come and take them away from to minus the worries, and to reduce the capacity of keeping them in my heart.

p/s: I L NC.

Dedicating this song to ppl i love.

2010-11-01T20:28:00.000+01:00

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Moment

2010-11-01T14:31:00.002+01:00

为什么开心的时刻总会半结束，

也不知道该期待到什么时候才有这一刻的出现。

我希望你知道，你在我心目中的位置和意义

我真的 liebe dich!

谢谢你

2010-10-30T23:41:00.000+02:00

=')

我呢？

2010-10-26T13:46:00.001+02:00

已经不见了...

Forgive me for being sensitive

2010-10-25T19:42:00.004+02:00

Few days before, another question came up to my mind..

" If somebody is gonna say something in the same way, will you scold them like how i scolded me? " you said yes. But ain't i different from all of them? ain't i just more important and having higher position than any other? cant you just treat me differently..

birthday is coming, i really have nothing to wish for..

the only thing is just...i want a better treating way from you thats all.

this question came out from my mind so sudden that, it continues asking me...

when you make a promise from me, you dont mean the thing to be promised, you re just simply making me happy but i would rather to have the honest answer from you..i cant control you because i know i can never do..but sometimes these are not control but i just want to feel why am i so special and what priorities i have among all of your friends.

but well i dont feel bad, really maybe its just..again im too sensitive...too sensitive compare to last time that i want to know more about you. i suddenly feel that...im just like a special friend..special is because maybe i really have something for myself which anyone can never ever get that every night and day,..

i dont want to ruin your coming birthday because iall i want to do is just to make you happy...

im happy today...the message that you sent to me seemed to be those messages that you sent to me before. im happy becasuse i was working with you.

you ask me if im tired, but i would say i will never get tired to help somebody i want and i love like family.

i just feel miserable because i felt im being treated like everyone..

who can touch you, who can hug you, who can play with you, who can talk with you, who can put their shoulder on you, who can dance with you etc etc etc..

i dont want this...i just want you to realise that..or at least explain or tellme until i understand..

i really cant stand anymore..and when it goes further more..i dont know..i will be disoriented and missing direction from where i should move on..hold me tight and only kiss me and hug me...can you?

xoxo. love

Snowy snowy

2010-10-25T09:09:00.001+02:00

wishing and hoping the day we both walking under the snow.

heart,

xoxo

=))

2010-10-24T00:10:00.001+02:00

一段溫暖的感情是需要慢慢加溫的，沒有人天生彼此的適合。互相願意為了對方去調整彼此的腳步與習慣，不願意付出、何來機會? 有了機會、一定要珍惜好好把握，不是隨時都有機會遇到適合牽著你的手。

谢谢你陪我。

纪念

2010-10-21T19:13:00.002+02:00

spending days and days, times and times,

from the feeling of not not wanting to be together until the greed appears..

it becomes then a need, want, desire...

i dont know what can i describe more for these months..

i wasnt sure and not wanting to expect more because i just feel weird in the beginning..

thinking back if its a right track to move on..

until the day i expect myself to be what i am, until the day that i admit myself..

and i know i want ya..

but because of this feeling,..it makes me insecure..

people surrounded, millions, thousands talks...

sometimes i just dont know how insecure in a sudden i have in me..

the fear to see us splitting, arguing, the pain..

i just want to shout out, im worried and i care.

stop being frustrated and pissed whenever this happens..

because i would be happy if somebody care and worry about me..

you re right that you have strong confirmation that i follow yours..

but are you? will you? can i have that strong confirmation from your eyes..?

i think nothing but just every pieces of you.

please tell me and catch me when i fall,

"because your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky,

they wipe away all my tears when i cry,

and i want you by my side. "

" i wont pull my hands up and surrender,

there will be no white flag above my door,

i mean love, and always will be. "

happy 21st.

love. xoxo

Wedding

2010-10-14T22:27:00.000+02:00

Great wedding, well done guys,

but i forgot to get my cam with me..

unhappy. =S

无名

2010-10-13T14:59:00.001+02:00

如果天天都可以好像今天这样，那该多好？ =)

Insecure

2010-10-11T23:29:00.003+02:00

女人

whenever things happen, its always feelings first.

i m feeling annoying because of myself..

i feel so annoying when im repeating the same thing again and again..

but i dont really wish this happen..is just that, the insecure in me..

i feel insecure and sometimes i just think too much..

tonight..i stood beside you for so long..but the only thing you dare to do is to open f's conversation when skype beeped, instead opening the other conversation..

why are you so scare whenever "this" conversation appears in your desktop?

is just nothing,..show me the conversation...

show me the way you care, give me the security..

thats what i need...

cos you dare to open whatever and whoever converation when i beside you, but not "this" one..

why? ask yourself? or i just thinking too much? or you dont dare to open this conversation? what happen to you and this person? why you just cant open this conversation when im around?

i dont wanna have argument towards this stupid thing that i feel so stupid to argue for...

i just want you to be happy, but please be honest to me..

if you see this, promise me not to be angry, or ask yourself why you will be angry... =\

im confuse, and i just feel insecure.. ='(

sorry..this is me...kayy..

我

2010-10-05T10:22:00.002+02:00

its just the way i think too much..

that you missed you trip..

its my bad..but so do i if you ask me not to go, because you re not happy..

im just telling what i feel...

我错了吗？

sorry..

=|

2010-10-02T18:43:00.001+02:00

虽然，外婆没告诉我下起雨也要勇敢前进，

但是我还会勇敢前进...

Leader

2010-10-02T00:36:00.002+02:00

i cant be,..

because i so soft that i cant even control and due with this matter properly,

i suck..when i think that its wrong and i still let this to happen.

you re right of what you said, help ppl who really need help..

and help ppl that really deserve my help..

perhaps i m just too foolish to let this happen, but i promise, it wont happen again, and i wont let this happen ever again..

not to everyone...

work means work..i can never put them off when the time to off is not the time it suppose to be..

perhaps, im really a failure of directing these ppl..

can i please get the strength to order someone not to go off from the laundry so fucking early?

im not blaming anyone, i just cant forgive myself being too good to ppl who is not suppose to deserve it when i know it..

my bad, im so sorry..

i promise this will never ever gonna happen anymore..

perhaps i need these shits happen that will make me stronger..

i would have a chance, i would do it till the best..

please, can i?

无题目

2010-10-01T02:59:00.002+02:00

我不想哭，但你知道哭的理由吗？

每当这一时刻，你的心在想什么？

你是否可以跟我说？

为什么你总不说，我是不会明白你的，你可以告诉吗？

你可以吗？

- qing -

2010-10-01T01:58:00.002+02:00

i dont show, its not because i dont care,

if i care you noticed and told me its strange btw us.

you know i dont like it when someone approaches,

i know that you wish to go to the wineyard since long time ago,

but you know what i wish now? i wish that, the coffeeshop plan and the bar plan cannot be done,

and you can never go to the wineyard, because i dont want you to go.

because i dont want even a picture from someone with you.

Fafa credit

2010-10-01T01:39:00.001+02:00

愛一個人：要了解，也要開解；要道歉，也要道謝；要認錯，也要改錯；要體貼，也要體諒；是接受，而不是忍受；是寬容，而不是縱容；是支持，而不是支配；是慰問，而不是質問；是傾訴，而不是控訴；是難忘，而不是遺忘；是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；是為對方默默祈求，而不是向對方諸多要求；可以浪漫，但不要浪費；可以隨時牽手，但不要隨便分手

DM

2010-09-28T17:08:00.002+02:00

The DM, gonna stay up late til tomorrow morning laa..

stay up chill with music and movie..not bad though but just a bit creepy and it comes to an end of the day..

having nice sweet life, i wish everything is good and wonderful till whenever..

i ve a thought..hehehe..

i just wish to have my own things as soon as possible =)

as in..starting up, stepping out from spoon feed, to reality..be ready for the pressure, be ready to take all the risks..

Service team

2010-09-15T15:48:00.002+02:00

Having 3 weeks rotation is quite cool but just that i think i should have more time for service and kitchen rotation because it impossible for me to just finish learning half of the thing and then to another department already..hmm..

well these few weeks were fine for me, at least i ve something to do instead of staying in the library for example to just update the presentation and all the computer work..i mean i enjoy it but maybe i can do more..but anyway yea..that was the week, and comes to kitchen, it was fun in the kitchen because you ve the chance to actually try variety of food and of course you ve the chance to make your own salad...why not? hmm..good though..

and this week running the restaurant around and needa wake up early because of the breakfast duty..needa make sure everything is clean and clear and no misunderstanding occurs..which is kinda hard sometimes..and also..something small matter but it becomes big..

and oso hopefully we are good.. =S

its just maybe sometimes there are problems and difficulties that you dont really realise..and that makes a big different because of the matter.

i know that you ask me not to be like that sometimes and im trying to learn and change as well..because i know that it needs time as we are not young..the behaviour that follows us for more than almost 20 years for me...

thats y..i will change, i hope you re understandable too.

dont get mad because it shouldnt be.

love you. lots =)

another day

2010-09-09T20:45:00.002+02:00

the problem is because, you broke the trust that we had..! =(

we will gain the trust back, dont worry! =)

kitchen duty

2010-09-06T23:08:00.002+02:00

accompanying a person til work ends in the middle and start working again..

how good if this would be my life then..

as least i dont need to think so much, i have my path and my way,

i dont really wish anything more as long as i have enough..

and i know i ve enough =)

thanks byy,,..

loves.

很想说

2010-09-03T11:11:00.002+02:00

having a sweet and great time with you, you made my life not to not think about you.

i thought that i can keep doing like before, like not caring too much. but i was wrong,

time builds thing can not simply can be erased or either throw away...and now i finally realised the way i treated you before, but i dont hope that i will get the same situation which you sometimes didnt approach at all.

baby,

lots love.

I miss 蒙丽嘉！

2010-09-02T15:43:00.000+02:00

Librarian

2010-08-31T16:16:00.002+02:00

Editing the presentation all the way and soft copies that need to make, etc etc.

But it was nice and relaxing somehow..haha.

the time that i can wear formal shirt =))))

I was being praised haha by my friend when i changed into my formal style instead of the polo, and boom! i was happy yesterday =)

born to be formal =P

* cough cough

2010-08-28T19:10:00.001+02:00

excuse me, you know its not good without asking permission!

this is my BAR!

miss miss

2010-08-25T12:21:00.002+02:00

hmm..im recharged. im fine, maybe its just because it has been a time i havent go down to luzern thats why my mind gone somewhere..im fine la, han han..hahah thanks for watching my blog, i was bside martin when you were talking with him.

hmmm..i miss my lov lov now, you smile makes me smile.. =)

A day off to luzern

2010-08-22T11:36:00.000+02:00

i was talking bout my "complaints" all the way. but afterall i heard from you, i know that i really think wrongly though =)

i should have work happily than complaining all the way =S

happy days.

Happy 21 st!

2010-08-21T02:33:00.000+02:00

TT night in the bar

2010-08-21T02:28:00.001+02:00

Its suppose to be a good night. I work all night long except the last hour. staying in the lobby. i m too sensitive. My apology.

I m fucking pissed off

2010-08-20T08:27:00.003+02:00

I talked to my mom few days ago talking about "Hows life" topic..

i told her the circulation and how it works. But im just too pissed to express.

* excuse for my language.

you these MFs are just using us as "boxing pillar" putting all your F "UN-satisfactions" onto us.

im not getting paid, and i need to work like nobody cares, and i needa accept all your F complains so tell me who can i complain to? Don't ever piss me off, i will write an essay to MR. I L!

Don't make me lose your reputation as the Malaysian Singaporean and Indonesian will not "do business" with you! I m so sorry. But please dont forgive me. I dont need that.

Dont make me lose my conscious or patience as i will book my flight immediately back home. Dont be surprise because once i go, some of them are gonna disappear at the same time.

Dont ever mess with me. You think im soft? Can be bullied easily? Once my off of my way, watch out! better get yourself 10 different insurance to protect your own life. MFs. Im ALMOST ENOUGH. dont try to test me.

The first week has started

2010-08-19T13:46:00.001+02:00

!!!!

busy busy busy and busy.. =)

bye bye my coffee shop very soon =(

Paris Eiffel Towel and Wingmill village

2010-08-07T21:06:00.002+02:00

Me with big wooden shoes =)
Amsterdam city central.

trip out 280710

2010-08-06T21:36:00.004+02:00

Sagrada Familia, stepped twice.

haha..the "cute" girl

the mon mon with me ;)
Liz liz with me ;)

FCBarcelona, here i come =P
Bern, on the way to Geneva to have a break!

Cracked skin OoO

2010-08-06T21:12:00.000+02:00

Argh. In this whole world there is just only 2 genders.

nothing i wanted to say much and no offence. anyone of you or whoever they are if they read what i wrote..

well, i was working fine and well about what im doing and of course i dont mind with working more from what i ve given. but what i am hoping is that, if they can just be more responsible instead then it would be better.

after so many days, i dont mind working in the same working area instead of changing the other department. well, if you can just put the chinas or whatsoever in the sink and flood with some water until the next day, at least is much more easier for us to clean them while just hanging them on the steel holder and let the flies shitting around there. oh come on, sorry to said, im not being "hired" to become one of your maid! i even have maid! putting things back into where they suppose to be after using them wont make you is just half a step more which could hardly taken your "fcuking" time away..

just make me happier. =\ because i m not.

Greenwich here i come.. =)

2010-07-24T21:37:00.002+02:00

Me and ah yeee wahaha..
Kuala Lumpur Longitude..o o o.

Greenwich Market. had something before going up of course =9
Ferry to the Greenwich.. =)

Had fun had fun..heheee

love madame tussauds LON

2010-07-22T18:16:00.003+02:00

ehehhehe...i had fun in madame tussauds. met my fav singer =) love love. amazing is just..

i didnt get into the haunted house =) scary.

lots love.

21st

2010-07-20T19:11:00.002+02:00

It has been a long period,

it has been a long time,

long moment that should have captured.

i dont know why we are..

but this is how the things started.

lots love..

Nostalgia..

2010-07-20T02:26:00.009+02:00

Uncle's wedding. The joy, happiness.
Art class before exam. Stressful but so fun and interesting.
Japanese cultural exchange. My friends..how are you?
My class 5K2. where i ve got my memories, so much so much installed. I dont wish to be deleted.
Volunteers since young =) we were helping the prom night. i still remembered Tony chock! you tipu me from wearing jeans. argh!
IU day. Even though, its not successful. Its not what i expected. I failed.
The 38 =) who used to sit with me for two years. the laughters heheee..never forget.
Victory. Proud. Strong. RED! You re always the best!
Volunteer..again..had fun. Listening to stories from all. understanding and tolerant.
So good to be together. Unlimited topics, infinity smiles.
My Japanese host student. I miss her though =) never fail to write letter with me since i was form 2.
Great christmas before we left overseas. Mid valley.
My partner. I miss you so much. *cough cough. for singing.
My dearest cousin Michelle. I hope you re fine and well enough.. =) miss those time. jogging, walking, "dogging" haha.
my dear han han..lee hom maniac.

Silliness. Who knows?.. It was just a game.
Teamwork and leadership, bravery, determination. How much you give not = to how much it returns.
Moral Project,..missing the skipping lesson time =D
Kiddy me, - Disney HK.

The friendship, the memories, the sudden moment "lomo".
IU day, the cheerleaders aka the bfs..
The hard work, the fun play. The prefects aka the school's ***. Well, you wouldnt know if you are not one of them. =)
Emily Kan. Rome, Italy.

Best roomie..Barcelona.

Service comp. Nervous, anxiety, calm.

Kitchen comp. Secret.

MBA party. Had fun with Evon and Martin. Happy year memang will past like thunder.

The (Me) had been from place to place, grown up, noticed, realized.

The reality of life.

Thanks for being like that, i fall, therefore i learnt. BJJ.

=)

2010-07-18T19:53:00.003+02:00

having great chat,..

looking forward to the trip..

im coming Barcelona againn..hehee..

i love Spain so much =)

Especially Gaudi's works. impressive!

hehee..it would be great if Phoebe tan didnt pull the "past" out!

hate you!

Great friend

2010-07-17T19:42:00.001+02:00

A great friend is like a good bra,

Hard to find, Supportive, Comfortable,

Always lifts you up, Never lets you down,

or leaves you hanging and is always close

to your heart.

Graduation 080710

2010-07-12T18:35:00.005+02:00

Congrats my great sister!!!! =)

Germany - Frankfurt

2010-07-12T17:28:00.003+02:00

Had great time in FRankfurt..summer time though..loving it so much =*

untitled again.

2010-06-30T02:40:00.002+02:00

Perhaps im just missing the active time

perhaps im just waiting for the day to come

perhaps im just missing the time without being alone

perhaps im just missing the time that i m workaholic

perhaps im missing you guys.

perhaps...i just dont want to be alone. ='(

Summer hols

2010-06-27T20:13:00.002+02:00

Almost everybody is going back to where they "live"..or most of them started their internship. This is the first time I stay in my room, i ve got almost nothing to do..I somehow feel abit useless though..staying here to wait for the night to comes and sleep for the day to wake me up again. The same routine, same eating, same activities. Working is hard, but staying here with limited space and credit to spend..is even harder for me. Im kinda workaholic? I dont know but i just dont want to stay in one place instead of working or doing something meaningful.

Summer comes, i saw pictures in the web, blogs..there are all about fun. I wish my hometown =\

I will need to wait for another year before i could go back though..i ll definitely be appreciating the short time i could spend in my home sweet homee,, with my friends and family.

I miss home. But i miss my family more. Doggy. I miss you. Ratatouille..miss you. I want to escape..boo hoo..but somehow..staying here wasnt that bad if somebody doesnt matter who she or he is..to accompany you..spend time to kill the boredom. argh.

July....come faster please..and my polaroid..come fasterrrr =(

August rush

2010-06-27T14:07:00.001+02:00

I know its abit long ago. But it is really nice movie =)

Luzerner Fest.

2010-06-27T13:46:00.004+02:00

all bout fireworksss..
DK and Andree

Suri and Jessica =)

This is one of the biggest fest organized in Luzern. This event will only end at 4 am in the morning..hahha..i wish my family was here too..so they could see how great is this fest =)

enjoying fireworks which lasted for almost an hour.

Dubai trip

2010-06-25T18:53:00.009+02:00

Bye Dubai =')

Me and the "papa" Clinton.

Somuska and me =)
Me and rati.

Desert =)

The Palace's lobby.
The Address's restaurant
The Address's suite.
Renaissance for buffet dinner =9

Ritz Carlton Regency
I love being At The Top =)

Ritz Carlton under construction in DIFC.
KFC, long time sincei had my KFC.
every 30 minutes there will be different "waterworks" out..
behind me was the burj khalifa building, this is the tallest building in the world.

Watch to enter the atlantis water park! was amazing.

At the Atlantis Shopping side.
At the Grand Hyatt lobby.

Me, Som, Diana, Rati

grand hyatt