London

having fun in london before my internship starts.

woo hoo~~ so great..gonna shop like crazy =)

enjoy the photos.

check fb for more =) you know~ lazy to upload so many in blog..

just gonna write a short message here..

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你每次对着我笑 你的笑里面有毒药

我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药

可能你从来没感觉到 最好你永远感觉不到

爱上你越来越无可救药...

love, kay.

England

LONDON im in..
hurray..visited my sister and friends. gonna upload more..
or fb me =) hahhaah..
have been missing..
mommy
daddy
lam b
doggie
my bunch of friends in KL
my bunch of friends in HTMi
and the special one xoxoxo..wahahha.

whose birthday?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

If i were a boy

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her'
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted'
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyedI
f I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go'
Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted'
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted'
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

(just feel like listening to this song ~)

overload.

sigh~ too many things in just weeks.

too little time for all these.

To my dearest in CH

if she didnt ask me to read, i wouldnt have read the post,
friends told me, lectured me, taught me, explaning to me,
but why am i still that stubborn? why am i still not getting what is the point?
why am i still sticking to something that it seems unreal, blur, fog, pointless?
didn't i cried for an answer? didn't i acted so eager to get an answer?
didn't i find out whats the matter?
maybe i was wrong to judge the person that we were judging for previous.
the person who seek attentions everwhere..desperate for something?
maybe i am, but maybe not. for me, you will think that,...that im too young,
dont know how to differentiate the right and to wrong. dont know what i am doing,
but who make the desicion of a boy must has his powerranger and girl must has her barbie?
for me..nothing is more important..i mean..i ll have my limit..i know what im doing..for the certain time, certain area, certain situation..i ll ignore..i ll really ignore..
well, maybe there isnt much time for us to spend together that ended up i chose something you all will not agree with..
im still what i am..i will not know what will gonna happen tomorrow morning,,..all i want is everybody...everyone happy...and for that certain time, i might have done my job, i will disappear, i will be vanished,,..nobody will notice..nobody will think of it..or maybe after a long time..2 years? 5 years? *silly smile. i dont know..
sorry if i disappoint you,..forgive my weakness..forgive me for what i did and done and doing..
but i m still what i am..
i dont want to touch any factors or solutions or deep brainstorming phylosophies..i just want you to know..for the specific time, specific situation..i will get things done. i ll be what i am, because of the strength of my family.
but thanks for being there in the beginning of the sem. thanks for being with me when i was down, when i need somebody to really talk to..when i need somebody to listen to me..i will never forget,..thanks.

Its too late to apologize?

i did what i shouldnt in a way,
and i underestimate myself from being the other way.
forgive me for what i have done,
no turning back..
punish if you could..because i couldnt find a better way,,
to forgive myself..because..
im somehow getting used to it...used to something unique,,
something fresh, something im curious for..
leave me a awhile, i will be able to find the way out..

love kay,

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无言.

Mist

Hmm..glimpsed..its gonna be the end of May. I'm getting afraid when everyday come to an end because the next brand new day will come..and days left are getting lesser and lesser..days spending here is getting lesser..everything is not under estimation anymore..if I could stay at this semester a little longer..just a little longer..