Cried.

i did a wrong decision, didn't i? i feel so bad that this might be all my fault. i shouldn't be taking so heavy responsibility to run the whole thing with members of more than 200. we need team spirit. i find there is no spirit among us. sport day is only for the children? i mean us?.. what 'bout people bigger than us? people who suppose to lead the team besides the captain n vice? teacher. and i'm confusing about the arrangement for each of the teachers. i asked the teachers' duty, they are all in managing overall runners and participants. but how about my team? im sorry to type this word out. im damn fucking mad when i asked for my participants' list. i bet you didn't even give a damn on it, did you? i found that in different document keeping together with some unknown papers. do you actually want to incharge of the house? nope, i shouldn't ask so politely. do you give a damn with red house progression? you don't expect some other students to run the whole and if there is a possibility to get champion and what, that s all your clever-ness and good management? bull shit, you don't even give support to the red house and this is all my vice and my responsibility huh? well, this is not enough, by the way, almost everything about the events' list done by JORDAN who was headache of placing the participants down and discuss with me together, i shall give him more credits and applause, i can see how he cares 'bout the team, the members, everyone, he even got scolded and punishment just because he wanted to find the participants, the only teacher who step forward to ask the progression is Pn.Noor and she even tell me the procedure and things i need to prepare. Decorating Committees and participants are very important and last but not least people who volunteered to march.
Now what, you think you have many jobs and duties to do? everyone is the same come on, i don't need to study and make sure i get average score for every subjects? i don't need to maintain my diet and stamina? i don't need entertainment time? i dn't need to sleep? i wont get sick? hello! im human also. nevermind. i will do everything and i will do the best.
well, phoebe this is not because the importance of winning, this is whether to show the team's spirits. i can see the red house members are using their through heart and have spirits of wanting to win and that is why you stand in the stadium, the field, the running track...
fight will the end. however, apologize if im not a good leader.
post referring to ks4 only.
ahhrr..im tired but i will carry on, because red house's spirit will lasts forever.
nights.