谢谢你

=')

我呢？

已经不见了...

Forgive me for being sensitive

Few days before, another question came up to my mind..

" If somebody is gonna say something in the same way, will you scold them like how i scolded me? " you said yes. But ain't i different from all of them? ain't i just more important and having higher position than any other? cant you just treat me differently..

birthday is coming, i really have nothing to wish for..

the only thing is just...i want a better treating way from you thats all.

this question came out from my mind so sudden that, it continues asking me...

when you make a promise from me, you dont mean the thing to be promised, you re just simply making me happy but i would rather to have the honest answer from you..i cant control you because i know i can never do..but sometimes these are not control but i just want to feel why am i so special and what priorities i have among all of your friends.

but well i dont feel bad, really maybe its just..again im too sensitive...too sensitive compare to last time that i want to know more about you. i suddenly feel that...im just like a special friend..special is because maybe i really have something for myself which anyone can never ever get that every night and day,..

i dont want to ruin your coming birthday because iall i want to do is just to make you happy...

im happy today...the message that you sent to me seemed to be those messages that you sent to me before. im happy becasuse i was working with you.

you ask me if im tired, but i would say i will never get tired to help somebody i want and i love like family.

i just feel miserable because i felt im being treated like everyone..

who can touch you, who can hug you, who can play with you, who can talk with you, who can put their shoulder on you, who can dance with you etc etc etc..

i dont want this...i just want you to realise that..or at least explain or tellme until i understand..

i really cant stand anymore..and when it goes further more..i dont know..i will be disoriented and missing direction from where i should move on..hold me tight and only kiss me and hug me...can you?

xoxo. love

Snowy snowy

wishing and hoping the day we both walking under the snow.

heart,

xoxo

=))

一段溫暖的感情是需要慢慢加溫的， 沒有人天生彼此的適合。 互相願意為了對方去調整彼此的腳步與習慣， 不願意付出、何來機會? 有了機會、一定要珍惜好好把握， 不是隨時都有機會遇到適合牽著你的手。

谢谢你陪我。

纪念

spending days and days, times and times,

from the feeling of not not wanting to be together until the greed appears..

it becomes then a need, want, desire...

i dont know what can i describe more for these months..

i wasnt sure and not wanting to expect more because i just feel weird in the beginning..

thinking back if its a right track to move on..

until the day i expect myself to be what i am, until the day that i admit myself..

and i know i want ya..

but because of this feeling,..it makes me insecure..

people surrounded, millions, thousands talks...

sometimes i just dont know how insecure in a sudden i have in me..

the fear to see us splitting, arguing, the pain..

i just want to shout out, im worried and i care.

stop being frustrated and pissed whenever this happens..

because i would be happy if somebody care and worry about me..

you re right that you have strong confirmation that i follow yours..

but are you? will you? can i have that strong confirmation from your eyes..?

i think nothing but just every pieces of you.

please tell me and catch me when i fall,

"because your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky,

they wipe away all my tears when i cry,

and i want you by my side. "

" i wont pull my hands up and surrender,

there will be no white flag above my door,

i mean love, and always will be. "

happy 21st.

love. xoxo

Wedding

Great wedding, well done guys,

but i forgot to get my cam with me..

unhappy. =S

无名

如果天天都可以好像今天这样，那该多好？ =)

Insecure

女人

whenever things happen, its always feelings first.

i m feeling annoying because of myself..

i feel so annoying when im repeating the same thing again and again..

but i dont really wish this happen..is just that, the insecure in me..

i feel insecure and sometimes i just think too much..

tonight..i stood beside you for so long..but the only thing you dare to do is to open f's conversation when skype beeped, instead opening the other conversation..

why are you so scare whenever "this" conversation appears in your desktop?

is just nothing,..show me the conversation...

show me the way you care, give me the security..

thats what i need...

cos you dare to open whatever and whoever converation when i beside you, but not "this" one..

why? ask yourself? or i just thinking too much? or you dont dare to open this conversation? what happen to you and this person? why you just cant open this conversation when im around?

i dont wanna have argument towards this stupid thing that i feel so stupid to argue for...

i just want you to be happy, but please be honest to me..

if you see this, promise me not to be angry, or ask yourself why you will be angry... =\

im confuse, and i just feel insecure.. ='(

sorry..this is me...kayy..

我

its just the way i think too much..

that you missed you trip..

its my bad..but so do i if you ask me not to go, because you re not happy..

im just telling what i feel...

我错了吗？

sorry..

=|

虽然，外婆没告诉我下起雨也要勇敢前进，

但是我还会勇敢前进...

Leader

i cant be,..

because i so soft that i cant even control and due with this matter properly,

i suck..when i think that its wrong and i still let this to happen.

you re right of what you said, help ppl who really need help..

and help ppl that really deserve my help..

perhaps i m just too foolish to let this happen, but i promise, it wont happen again, and i wont let this happen ever again..

not to everyone...

work means work..i can never put them off when the time to off is not the time it suppose to be..

perhaps, im really a failure of directing these ppl..

can i please get the strength to order someone not to go off from the laundry so fucking early?

im not blaming anyone, i just cant forgive myself being too good to ppl who is not suppose to deserve it when i know it..

my bad, im so sorry..

i promise this will never ever gonna happen anymore..

perhaps i need these shits happen that will make me stronger..

i would have a chance, i would do it till the best..

please, can i?

无题目

我不想哭，但你知道哭的理由吗？

每当这一时刻，你的心在想什么？

你是否可以跟我说？

为什么你总不说，我是不会明白你的，你可以告诉吗？

你可以吗？

- qing -

i dont show, its not because i dont care,

if i care you noticed and told me its strange btw us.

you know i dont like it when someone approaches,

i know that you wish to go to the wineyard since long time ago,

but you know what i wish now? i wish that, the coffeeshop plan and the bar plan cannot be done,

and you can never go to the wineyard, because i dont want you to go.

because i dont want even a picture from someone with you.

Fafa credit

愛一個人：要了解，也要開解；要道歉，也要道謝；要認錯，也要改錯；要體貼，也要體諒；是接受，而不是忍受；是寬容，而不是縱容；是支持，而不是支配；是慰問，而不是質問；是傾訴，而不是控訴；是難忘，而不是遺忘；是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；是為對方默默祈求，而不是向對方諸多要求；可以浪漫，但不要浪費；可以隨時牽手，但不要隨便分手