collapsed

utterly speechless, make decision before when you know shits happen.

sorry, i realised, you feelings through his song.

你只喜欢我微笑 

you will only like me smile 你决定我的需要 

you decide my needs 我要怎么说才好 

why can i do more? 我不是为你制造 

im not made out because of you 关心像是泥沼 

you re care sticky mud

拉住我往下掉 

pulling me down 还是漂亮口号 

or this is a great nickname? 诱惑你的视角 

to temp your vision 你把我的喜欢好随便删掉 

you simply delete my interests 变成你要的调调 

to change into your lifestyle and rhythm  你为我好我知道我都知道 

i know you re treating me good, i really know 我的烦恼我的骄傲你却不明了 

but you dont know my proud and what is happening to my thinking 怎样爱你才好 

how can i love you better 毕竟黑豹需要自由奔跑 

as leopard needs to has its own space to run about 不能满足于拥抱 

cant fulfill and receive more  can you feel my world  真实的我没办法伪造  can you take my hand  真诚你会感觉到   can you feel my world  真实的我没办法伪造  并不想讨好  你才觉得我重要 

没关系，因为彼此相信对方，那就够了，不再多言

只好说我们太恩爱，不懂得硬中带软，所以往往很多事只能后来才解决，所以我们不知道如何在危机时刻防守，撤退，好让日后从长计议..

Hey babe

sorry babe that i didn't have time to chat with you in the morning,

i hope you re having fun now on the journey to somewhere..

i wish you were here.. *silly smile.

i ll miss ya.

lots love.

just wanna say

you re irresistible! =P

=)

我们真的只有这么多话题吗？

just hope that we can talk more.

wishing to have one

hmm..how i wish to have one..

but until now i dont get it..

where is it? my my my my my reply

i typed.

I typed what i wanna typed.

Dont mind repeating again and again what i wanna tell you.

i dont mind telling you again and again.

i miss you smile.

=')

i really miss you smilling to me.

Biggest wish all of sudden

I wish and i hope that i have a chance to go to Westlife concert. At least once. =o=

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thats y i feel insecure..
thats y we argue.
thats y i m afraid.
thats y i think too much.

再一次感到失望

everytime of today's promise..become disappointment.
I'm afraid to wait and look forward.
And I just want you to know how much I care and worried. I just hope I'm the one who can understand and solve things with you together. P/s: you know IL NC. Heart almost roll tears down.

阿 bi

i ve got nothing to say.

just..want to spend time with you as much as possible.

p/s: IL NC.

sometimes just aint enough

its still fear and pain...

of course it needs time to recover..

but im sure i will get through it dont worry.

because i believe your promise..for the one and only.

p/s. ILNC

cool

because you should know by now that,

who is the most important to you..

you know what it means..

p.s ILNC

thanks.

whenever my curiosity is up to this level, i cant bare with it. blame me for being "busy body". but the only thing is i wanna know.

may i know? whats the conversation about? why is there some sentences which suppose to be only writing to your girl appear in this conversation?

you promised me to tell..whats that all about?

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=) you told me. but just...i know you re playful..it can be in all kind..but some words can only say to someone who is special to you, someone who is really mean something to you.

i want the respect of im being your girl, and i dont wish to be playful when i think this relationship we both are looking so deep into it.

thanks. thanks for letting me slowly realise whats happening around in your world.

thanks for avoiding some awkward situations.

i dont wish to have more than only me who is being called some special in your heart.

i want you to call the one and only me.

dont be playful with this anymore okay? =]

we know how we need each other.

p/s: I L NC.

Sleepless nightt

just a glace,,..semester is gonna end really soon. its gonna say bye bye to this semester again. then continue my HD.

today is my off day, so i decided to leave sorenberg and get down to luzern with moni. was happy all the way, had shopping, spend something at least filling my satisfaction. ha ha. anyway. had fun..sweety.. =9

we went to have dinner in a thai restaurant. we were carrying our stomach on the way back.

we snapped shots, we played, we talked, we chit chat, we etc etc hidden. haha.

there was something happened. i just dont know why whenever we having great time and then it ends tremendously. someone had alcohols beyond the bar which they supposed to know they are not allow to. things happen again and all around. why they have to be so stupid...its just so simple to follow the rules and regulations. can you guys not having these many of troubles and i could have my last few weeks moment spending with people i want to? stop doing something childish like a kid with full of curiosity. if you know thats wrong, you remember and not to redo the mistake is acceptable. when the second time with common sense doing something wrong when you know about it but still you want to do it..that is not acceptable. - karma. whatever you did, you will have revenge one day. you will need to pay back even more than what you did wrong.

anyway..was planning to watch stars but failed because of them, thanks, shall i give you guys credit on my post? = ="

i walked alone to the post office and back fro twice..i walked to the stars watching area go and back for two times. i talked to someone who is trustworthy, thanks honey, you made half my day still shinny. i met you then, and we went back together. i decided to stay in my room because i wanna give you some space to chill out. shytes always happen..then bar was closed, most of them were being kicked out. wondering what is happening...and fire alarm rang...running here and there..while i just wish to have a silent friday. i dont wish or hope much..just sometime for me spending with somebody i care.

then my babe came in and had a chat with me..asking about me and telling me when it comes to relationship, i must fight and never give up with it. so i persuade myself to learn to trust. even when im the many thoughts people. however, i just found something not true..but still i will trust you, because you promised and tell me whats true. and i still believe.

and now, 4.04am..i m still awake..because i couldnt believe my eyes what i saw..i feel so embarrassing and feel so priceless about me anymore because i stepped in the area of privacy.

i was defining the word " i love you " and calling " husband and wife " to anyone as long as you like to anyone you want to. im so oriented at that moment. i was shaking and shivering myself. i saw the conversation which begin with " can with start again ? ", " do you need doc? ", " of course i worry about you" , " i love you lo po " etc etc. please tell me it was just prank or someone was writing it. i apologise as because i was just customising your birthday album as garv told me to, but a msg start up and my eagerness of looking came through. but i think i have the right because im your girl. forgive me if im concouring your room but im not. i dont really understand until you tell me and explain to me. its like the incident we met on the slope, you explain to me whats happening. and so i accept. i just want to know what happening around you how i tell you everything even though you might not interested in them. i want you to tell me or at least writing it to me than walking away from me. these mistakes are just gonna happen again on me because i dont know whats right and wrong and where is the mistake that i shouldnt redo again anymore as i know the answer and i shouldnt be asking again.

somebody told me that, small little thing could not be seen in short term but accumulation of the small things are gonna affect the long run. i cant afford to lose this important person, just like you cant afford to lose the trust from them. Whenever, i would really love to sit down and hear your opinion and feedback, but at the end i only bring my sadness and saving the question marks until you come and take them away from to minus the worries, and to reduce the capacity of keeping them in my heart.

p/s: I L NC.

Dedicating this song to ppl i love.

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Moment

为什么开心的时刻总会半结束，

也不知道该期待到什么时候才有这一刻的出现。

我希望你知道，你在我心目中的位置和意义

我真的 liebe dich!